Karen has commented on feeling nauseous after eating nearly anything, but especially after eating things which are "not good" for either of us. I have started to pay attention (yes, I have a weight problem) to my own feelings. Here I am talking about internal physical sensations as opposed to internal emotional sensation.
The situation was that I had eaten too many cookies. The feeling was vaguely unpleasant. Why had I not noticed this before? I suspect the answer may lie in the stuffing of feelings that come with addiction. Eating is used to suppress all internal sensation, physical and emotional. Learning to ignore emotional discomfort leads to ignoring the rest of the bodies signals.
Question of the day: Can I learn pay attention to the signals of my body and my soul for just this day?
posted by Y.H.N.
The situation was that I had eaten too many cookies. The feeling was vaguely unpleasant. Why had I not noticed this before? I suspect the answer may lie in the stuffing of feelings that come with addiction. Eating is used to suppress all internal sensation, physical and emotional. Learning to ignore emotional discomfort leads to ignoring the rest of the bodies signals.
Question of the day: Can I learn pay attention to the signals of my body and my soul for just this day?
posted by Y.H.N.
Always I have taken one of two extreme stances with respect to eating. All or nothing--either I pay all the WRONG kinds of attention to food; else I give it no thought at all. If I'm not in the middle of a binge, I am not thinking about food, not one bit. So I pay all the prices one pays with that approach.
ReplyDeleteTonight the main reason I did NOT inhale a pint of ice cream is the distraction afforded by an urgent task right after my tasty healthy well proportioned dinner. Hours later my body is catching onto an awareness of being quite full. Also of being quite heavy and large.
It's 11pm now; if I get to dawn without a binge that will have been 36 hours, an hour at a time.